theres no such thing in anyone's life, as an unimportant day.
does anyone else out there in cyberworld, find it hard to wake up in the morning like me? seriously?! not because i didnt sleep well the night before, bt only because im soo tired of the repetitiveness my life has become? thats bad right? i mean? maybe im depressed... actually not even a maybe... i know im depressed.
ok so now what? how can i un-depress myself?... vacation?.. shopping sprees?? hmmm.. easier said then done.....please.. before i start getting stupid comments saying my other shuddacuddawuddas.. let me update you with all thats goin on right now.
i quit my job and moved from the bay all the way to modesto to help take care of my mom who has cancer... tough, but we are dealing with it. but thats the easy part... what we didnt count on was the emotional effects that it was gonna have on everyone.... i mean what can someone do, for the one person who always took care of everyone else? my mom is like that... she was the type of lady who would help anyone who would ask for it....as a mother though, she loved to take control but now, her disease is making her lose control... and its not good for her sanity. for everyones sanity. on days where the house isnt a battlefield.. moms actually a peaceful person... however on days where my mom is in pain, the house is like a tornado waiting to happen. its a pandoras box effect.
it would be easy for me to just give up. to leave... and to have nothing to do with my family. but i know i cant do that. my heart wont let me... my question to myself now though, is how am i gonna be able to alleviate everything going on at home and still move my life forward? so back to the above question what can i do to un-depress myself?... i blog. its the only way, i can vent, and say what i gotta say...
alrite.. SO THANKS FOR READING! :) take care.
does anyone else out there in cyberworld, find it hard to wake up in the morning like me? seriously?! not because i didnt sleep well the night before, bt only because im soo tired of the repetitiveness my life has become? thats bad right? i mean? maybe im depressed... actually not even a maybe... i know im depressed.
ok so now what? how can i un-depress myself?... vacation?.. shopping sprees?? hmmm.. easier said then done.....please.. before i start getting stupid comments saying my other shuddacuddawuddas.. let me update you with all thats goin on right now.
i quit my job and moved from the bay all the way to modesto to help take care of my mom who has cancer... tough, but we are dealing with it. but thats the easy part... what we didnt count on was the emotional effects that it was gonna have on everyone.... i mean what can someone do, for the one person who always took care of everyone else? my mom is like that... she was the type of lady who would help anyone who would ask for it....as a mother though, she loved to take control but now, her disease is making her lose control... and its not good for her sanity. for everyones sanity. on days where the house isnt a battlefield.. moms actually a peaceful person... however on days where my mom is in pain, the house is like a tornado waiting to happen. its a pandoras box effect.
it would be easy for me to just give up. to leave... and to have nothing to do with my family. but i know i cant do that. my heart wont let me... my question to myself now though, is how am i gonna be able to alleviate everything going on at home and still move my life forward? so back to the above question what can i do to un-depress myself?... i blog. its the only way, i can vent, and say what i gotta say...
alrite.. SO THANKS FOR READING! :) take care.
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