Thanksgiving.

i havent been able to sleep really well these last couple of days... and its seriously taking its toll on me... Ive been cranky, and moody. especially with john... and then I noticed that ive been super sensitive with everything....

and thing is, i love you, so i take extra care to listen.... and its your actions that speak louder then words.

So November has passed, and Thanksgiving has ended. But i think that every day is a new day to be thankful for all the blessings we have been given.

A roof over head, and transportation. Good Jobs.

Speaking of which... I got rehired at Macy's. :) at first i was a little scared with the new registers, but its ok, I got it.

Im very thankful for the time I got to spend with my mom this year... I miss her every single day, but i know that she's in heaven Watching over everyone.

Im thankful for my life full of LOVE, Bella and Babe.... My family...fathers, mothers, brothers and sisters..... and Friends---- '


anyway, new layout. :) gnite.

NOTHING LEFT TO SAY.

I CAN'T SLEEP.

i woke up around 3 to go to the bathroom, I saw my stepdad cuz he came home from work.. and then Babe went to the bathroom, and then Bella ran out of the room..... lol... too much excitement, toooo early in the morning.

So it seems like the million dollar question: WHAT HAPPENS NEXT?

Slowly i feel like im being acquainted to the real world again. Its a change, for some reason, im not that welcomed too. I've been so used to my old routine, that now, I feel lost.... I know that things were inevitable... But I guess in the back of my mind, I was so focused on taking care of others, That i didnt have time to really worry about me. Now, its like, i dont even know where to start.

So i apply to jobs... but I know i could be half-assing it.--- Futhermore, today when i went to Adecco, my career counselor, kept asking me questions about my last year of jobless experience. And then she asked, well is your mom better now? and i told her Im sure she is.... and then the lady told me that it was good.. And i told her, well, she isnt suffering anymore.... so its great.

and then she looked at me-- awkward silence, and then said sorry.

... ok, maybe that situation could've been avoided by somehow telling her off the bat.. But I didnt want her to sympathize me... I just wanted a job not a therapy session!!

sigh* I know everyone means well... please don't get offended!!

But, it's just that Im not getting over something. I have to learn how to live with loss. And everything happens at its own time.

However, If i ever needed to reach out to someone, I'll let you know.... its just sometimes its easier to just write it out.

You're everything I need and more. :)

Everyone grieves in their own way.

I write.

Soo much has happened in the past month, it's been overwhelming... Now that everything has settled down, Im left with so many different decisions to make, and its scary.

im sorry i really havent written in awhile... truth is, i had to let things just fall into place.. i have A WHOLE BUNCH OF un-finished posts.:( sorry....

My mom was a big part of my life, I miss her everyday. Im sad that I can't physically see her.... but i know that she's beginning her next life in heaven watching over all of us, and still taking care of us... its just hard, and there are times, when i wish she would just pop up out of no where and say hi... i just want to know that she's ok--- even tho, i know she is.

i cant tell everyone enough, how much i appreciate all the kind things that people have been giving to us... prayers, consoling gifts, and supportive words.. even hugs, kisses and tissues!! its been hard, but with everyone's help. its been a little easier.

Ive been so inspired, to just live a simple, balanced, happy life.....


Luckily, Babe is here now.. and we can get our lives on track, together rather then apart. Its soo much easier that way, and ive been so scared... but somehow, with his strength, i know everything will work out, and we will be ok.

ive been taking things one day at a time, i know ive been lagging, especially on the blogging front, but i need time to just live life so i have something to blog about...

I rescued a lil puppy... 3 months old, terrier mix and decided to name her Bella, cause i really liked the name Isabelle... (yeah--- no twilight influence). She's been a handful but she's a puppy so she is easily forgiven.

i have a couple of interviews lined up next week... hopefully, everything goes great.

wish me luck.

LiFE iS TOO SHORT.

Happy 26th Birthday KAT!!

iloveyou best.

ps: from bella too.

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. :)

A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts. ~Washington Irving


R.I.P ROSALIA GADDI HOUTCHENS
SEPTEMBER 4, 1955 to OCTOBER 18, 2009

If anything i learned from my mom, is that happiness consists of living a simple life. Your priorities, are God, and your FAMILY....everything after that just falls into place. You hold onto your blessings, the good and the bad, and you go on with the ride. Every situation you are given, you pray to God.

In life everyone endures there own struggles. Unfortunately, some harder then others, but in the end, its all the same. My mom battled with breast cancer for almost 5+ years...from the very beginning she was at stage four, with matastisis to the bone, bone marrow, brain and liver. She fought long, and hard... and the serious side affects didnt hit until the end of last year, when she started getting transfusions...... and they found that the cancer was active in her brain...Even, though my mom keep going.....when she lost her hair after her radiation to her brain, my mom still insisted on cleaning the house, and going out. She would make it to 8 o'clock mass every single day. with her colorful head scarves/rags/hats. And we would have breakfast, or go to the 99cent store, or dollar tree...Or she would ask to just drive around and go to the Blessed Sacrament in Riverbank, or visit the sisters of the HolyCross... While Im driving, she then would ask about my bf, and want to talk to him, or Telling me how she no longer wants dogs as grandchildren...or about me being a nurse, or continuing my education./// Then wen we come home, after we clean the rooms, or fold laundry, she would always tell me to rest.... She hated being in bed... always getting up to check on us... and make sure our bags and rooms are maintained. popping up out of nowhere... Even as she got weaker, her stubborness still would insist on her independence...

As the cancer progressed, we werent able to do all those things anymore.... she stayed in bed more, and ate less... then talked less...and slept more.

This year, i was able to spend a lot of time, being with her, learning more about her. I couldnt believe that in the 25 years, how much i didnt know, about someone who knows soo much about me.... She genuinely cared about everyone, it didnt matter how long she knew you, what you looked like, where you are from. She enjoyed the presence of people, entertaining them.. She was so humble, and she enjoyed living life simply. She would always pray that God would take care of us, before we prayed for Her. She never put herself first.... I learned that anything she ever did, she always wanted to include the family, AND make sure that everyone is provided for. I spent so many years trying not to be her, only to find that, the more i push the more she pulls... and the more i become like her...

Not only is my mom always going to be in my heart, she is My heart. Her caring compassion, her innocence, trustworthyness in people, her ability to love through hurt, and her unfailing faith in God .Thats all things she instilled in me, and im sure in my brothers and sisters too... as well as touching the many people all over the place.

She always loved angels, she enjoyed collecting them.. and NOW, she's our angel.

Its only been a day, and I miss you mom...

Thank you for everything you've done for us all.

You can rest now.

i love you....

In one moment, Life can change.
One life, can affect a lot of people,
One good memory, can spark a smile,
One good smile, can open a heart,
Open hearts, can get hurt easily,
Hurt brings about sadness,
One moment of sadness, can bring forgiveness,
Forgiveness, can bring you peace.
Finding peace, allows you to find happiness.

through a window.

My auntie's from new york are here. I picked them up this morning from their hotel.. and they went crazy while i did my errands at the oriental market.... buying vietnamese food... you gotta hand it to my aunts, you will never starve with them.

i swear they brought food from new york, and on top of their food, they bought food here.

i missed my aunts and their quirky personalities.

Its hard to imagine whats happening. one of those things that you never seem to understand until it really happens to you. Its like we are in our own little world, and everyone else is outside it.

I hate it when people ask me how my day is going, or how my mom is (we live in a small city...) its hard to actually say NOT GOOD, but then at the same time, it feels better to open up to someoone.

you cant put a time limit on your life. When its the end, it will happen.

its getting harder and harder each day. But every new day is a another chance.

L'Occitane Review: Almond Apple Velvet Concentrate

Im just going to cut to the chase on this one:



My dad bought it for me in August, he told me to try L'Occitane cuz he likes the lotion (yes i know.. my dad.)... sure enough after i washed my face and put on the lotion, my skin was seriously soft, and smooth, I noticed smaller pores right away... RIGHT AWAY... and it smelled so yummy... The consistency of the lotion is nice and light.

Ive been using Aveeno skincare products because my skin is annoying when it comes to what i put on it, it USUALLY reacts best with aveeno, so i was surprised when i used this one, because i've been none to have bad effects with expensive skin care products... i dont know if its because the things i used was too strong or what not.... but it has definitely, shown an amazing difference in my skin. Its overall effect was soo good, i can go out with no foundation (when im feeling daring..hehe)

The only con about this product is that its 42 dollars... however, the lady gave us a bunch of samples... and online, you can get a discount off of it if you buy another skin care product.... and it doesnt have a spf (this might not necessarily be a con since i only put spf on in the morning)

with skin like mine, i tend to buy what has truly proven to work. Aveeno has always been a staple, but since im getting older i was looking for something that combats aging... this product really is great. I decided to review it cuz, I was looking for reviews on this and i couldnt find a single one. Lol! hopefully this works for someone else.

www.loccitane.com

if i can change places.

Im hurting inside.

Not because my mom is dying, but because there is nothing i can do to stop whats going to happen.

Hospice came today, to start assisting us on all the necessary things.

Admitedly, there was a certain comfort in them coming. but its morbid.... its definitely one of those experiences that i never thought woiuld ever happen to me.

i dont know where all my extra stength is coming from, but im glad i have it.

cause right now, its not about me, its about the people i care about who need me.


... the social worker from hospice gave me a book about dying.... at first i was scared to open it, cause i didnt want to know... was scared to know.... but it was a small book like 10 pages long, and huge writing... and it was sitting on my desk calling my name.... 'read me...' so i prayed, and i opened the book. i actually kind of just skimmed through it... but in my opinion, its one of those books you never wanna read,... cause its so hard to come to terms with what its telling you.

.....

JULU jewelry: Lariat Necklace

I got my Lariat Necklace in the mail today from Stephanie of Julu Jewelry.

It's so pretty... I wish my little brother didn't ruin my memory card... so i can post pictures up on here.... sometimes, its better to see things, then read it.... in due time.

my package came really fast, and stephanie gave me great communication throughout the whole thing... she even was able to make the chain longer!! she was so friendly... and understanding.

i was surprised when i opened my package and i recieved a pair of earrings (free), some mints, and asian candies..... Her box was decorated and specially detailed towards me...

i like recieving things in the mail... and i especially love recieving little surprises.

I remember how i felt when i recieved my DSK necklace that my bf bought me... and how special that packaging was as well. **sigh** lol.

The internet is a great place to find up and coming artist... whether it be cosmetics, fashion, or jewelry... music, photographers... whatever!

its hard to 'make-it' out there. i love helping these people out.

www.julujewelry.com

www.dskjewelry.com

:)

lemonade.

its funny how life is sometimes.

just when you think things are looking up, an obstacle comes along.

my moms blood test came back from the doctor... and it looks like her liver is beginning to fail from the cancer.

... and the doctor said its time.

im not sure how to feel about this right now... its a whole bunch of emotions.

ill blog later... when i can clear my head better.

anything but ordinary.

We find comfort among those who agree with us - growth among those who don’t.
::Frank A Clark

Sometimes we are so busy with our lives that we forget what it was that we were so busy working towards… or what is worth living for. We try to suffice with giving excuses. ‘im doing this for US.’ Or ‘my future’.. but sometimes, that’s not even what you want. A lot of times, directions change. Its up to people to find that balance again,…. After all, you are your own person. Problems arise, when U reach some kind of obstacle- that blocks you… and u cant get over it..… or sometimes even, you are too busy chasing ‘the future’, that you forget about the present ultimately forgetting about the real reason why you were doing it….

That’s when you turn to something else. Try to find a way to appease themselves and their anxieties… Some people go on vacation—they find relaxing on a white sandy beach just what they needed to invigorate themselves….others go on shopping sprees—feeding there need with materialistic things…others try some other form of physical activities… and Some turn to their faith. They look to God to lead their way. Whatever it is, i find that what works is to make sure its truly right for you. Make sure that your strong, and know yourself enough that you will GET THROUGH whatever obstacles are in your way.

Further, there are a lot of people out there that like to put their opinions on others. If someone is lost in direction, that individual can easily succumb to pressure and do what those people are saying. You just have to be true to yourself. Its hard to do though, sometimes, cuz that means realizing that you are just human, and you cant do everything. Its not failing, its just knowing that it wasn’t meant to be. Or, it just means, to take things one step at a time. Its hard because society now is about getting things done FAST. In the long run, it feels better for you because you did something for yourself. Everything happens for a reason…

There are so many ways to get misguided these days. But, you can weed out the bullshit and find what really works.

That’s why I like marching to my own drumbeat. Sure, its off… sometimes HELLA off… But… I wouldn’t have it any other way. I might do things differently, have my own opinions about things. Learn things my own way. But… that’s just it : its MINE. All mine…

I don’t find it necessary sometimes to waste my breath on people who don’t deserve it. But sometimes, they have to be told. Im sure right now, for every one person who reads this, 2 are beginning to hate on my words. Wait? Why? Is it because you hate the fact that im NOT like YOU? I can probably tell you exactly what your gonna say to try and hurt me and bring me down… and your thinking im gonna change for your words??!

How well do you know me?

not at all!

ur thinking at first glance, Im not socially acceptable to society… im not skinny, and im in debt… not going to school.. and not working. “WHAT? SERIOUS? U depressed unloved lazy bum!!

But, im not. Common misconception…. and NO i dont think im misunderstood, just over judged…… Cuz what you don’t know, is that everything is done for a reason. I care a lot for other people. I made sacrifices to help out my family. I LOVE, unconditionally. I have a health condition that for a normal person, would easily be able to lose weight, but for me I have to work 10x harder. AND hate to disappoint you but I AM LOVED… by a handful of people who accept me for ME….

My only problem is that I can’t love myself… however with each word I type its beginning to change.

I look to a bright future. One that IM GONNA BE HAPPY WITH. Not one that YOU will be happy with. Im gonna make myself proud. Myself.

Its not like your gonna help me anyway, everyone has their own things to deal with.

Im not looking for a sympathy pat… I don’t care. You love me or hate me. But im on the road to learning how to love myself, and im not looking back for other people’s stupidity!

Im tired of feeling embarrassed of being me.

Back to what i was saying… For those people out there, who are doing things that make them happy, you’re already winning…

and for the closeminded- people who like to judge others: one day your gonna fuck up, and your gonna end up at the bottom. and fortunately for you, their are gonna be people who know what its like and help you up again….

stay open minded- humble, and above all thankful.

your lucky to be given the things you already have.

you can never have too much.

i got my packages from i<3readcherry and fredericks!!!!

:) im soo excited about my purchases.

theres something about buying yourself nice underwear that really makes my mood go way up. lol.

off to Mountain House. :) to spend time with my other fams.

that certain something.

i tried decapitating my curling iron to make it into a clipless one. lol. but i failed….it was a no go… i actually got scared cuz its connected to the barrel, so i decided not to take it off….i didnt want to break it.. maybe i should try it on another cheaper curling iron first…lol. maybe… damn youtube with all your bright ideas!! lol. at least i finished making my jeans into a skirt. admittedly, while it lasted it was pretty exciting… NEXT? jewelry making. yep. its all about it now.. but i kind of dont want to spend the money on all the stuff. lol. maybe i should go back to micheals and get side tracked by another hobby!!

so the weekend is almost here!! what to do? what to do?!! its supposed to be HOT too. :( someone remind me why i moved back to all this hot weather? lol. jp…. im supposed to get my lashes from the redcherry sale today. (according to the tracker) and maybe just maybe tomorrow ill finally get my other package!?!

been job searching but been lazy at the same time, next week its definitely on. GYM-JOB SEARCHING- everything. im tired of being this big blob of depression, and failure… no MORE.

oOoOOo. i know maybe mountain house. or bay. either way. :) at least i get a break from this.

risk.

sooo i just got back from helping chard out with his homework…. his teacher wanted him to write about an incident where he basically did something that he never thought he was ever going to do, and how the outcome surprised him… we were talking about topics.. and amazingly enough… i guess im not such a boring person after all.lol…

I know in my life, i’ve been known to ‘march to a different drum’… People i’ve talked tend to comment how ‘unique’ or ‘different’ i am…I think differently, I act weird. Lol.. made as much as a compliment it is, Its also can be taken as a insult…. My life has never been anything ‘typical’ or ‘normal’…. trust me, i know because there have been days where i wish it was…. i know some People do not understand me. I’ve been the one whose been most criticized, most talked about behind my back, and overall, im the original black sheep… (hey somebody had to get that title… might as well be me)

decisions you make dont ultimately give you the right direction, but the thing is you make the decision, and that should be enough for you… worry about the outcome later….

People who really know who i am should be proud. Cuz there are so few, amongst everyone who knows me. I dont think i can ever be normal. Cuz being normal, meant that i have accomplished the obstacles i have been given in my life. sooo, even when everything has settled down…when it comes down to it i wouldve already done many things.

when its needed

today..kuya came over with kat!! :)

it was a really simple day, and it was nice weather.

you really couldnt ask for more…

i got to spend time with my bestie… and mom was happy.

and i learned how to make penny’s thaichili sauce! mmhmm. :)

…anyway. happy sunday!! (lol.. no more bday greetings!! lol)

gaining control..

HAPPY BDAY DREA!!

today i decided to finally do something about my annoyingly messy closet….(all honesty it isnt really messy.. just the clothes are towering over, and i was looking at it and thinking that soo much can be given away….) soo i got rid of helllla clothes… i had tank tops that were fraying, and that i wore to bed.. but i noticed im pretty repetitive when it comes to sleep clothes… so i just threw away any of the tanks ive had for years…(yeah, years!), shirts i dont even reach for anymore, and i even had a dress i NEVER wore. (its too short for anything.. i bought it cuz it was 5 dollars from the original 89 that it was…) and wrote down necessities for fall/winter….

1. long sleeve shirts, blouses..

2. SWEATERS-cardigans—preferably black/ white…. i need a good black cardigan, i keep wearing my gray one.

3. sneakers&socks. (i have no socks and im thinking of starting a sneaker venture… i never understood why guys are soo hooked on this.. but something tells me im gonna get a crash course into buying Nike’s 101.) lol.. its gonna be fun to see life from my bf’s sneaker fetish. :P…. plus hes buying. im down to spend when its with someone elses money.

4.new SOPHISTICATED underwear. lol.. (i dont wanna explain this.. im blushing already at the thought that anyone can be reading this)

i LOVE fall clothes. :) cant wait. in summer time i dress simpler, bcuz i find it easier to be comfortable in hot weather… but in fall, u can wear pretty much anything thanks to california weather. :) its a matter of having a place to wear it too.— therefore, i vote a monthly family reunion??! something to look forward too? yes?

it is always cleansing to go looking through your old stuff, and throw things away… i dont know what it is about it… empowering (shutup i know its corny).. lol. i mean its not like i have anything else to do… speaking of which, i headed over to micheals to get more plastic cases for my jewelry…. then i started looking for a hobby. lol…. they were having a sale on SKETCH PADS.. so i got it for 3.49…… and they clearanced out a charcoal/ sketching set. 14.99 to 2.99! soo im hoping that i got enough inspiration to start drawing again. that and going back to the gym… small steps.

ive been really depressed lately, but my mom’s new medication seems to be working positively. im feeling soo relieved… :) thanks for all you guys’ prayers… everyday is a new day… but, im feeling good about this new treatment… i know that ultimately, everything is in God’s hands, but at least for now, i dont feel hopeless.

when im with you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!!

--- even though u never read this...

I LOVE YOU.

so today was a good day.

mom had her tres leches cake. yummy.

lol… and she actually liked her gifts and allowed herself to enjoy them. im excited to see her wear them..

:)

in the afternoon we went to church, and bought dinner at the hawaiian bbq place….

i dont understand you sometimes. i wish you would stop being so selfish.

definitely, maybe.

**happy birthday bebe!! :)

i hate hot weather…

but most importantly, i hate hot humid weather.

yeah yeah… a little late now, summer is almost over. lol. i complain too much. bleh.

—anyway, i went shopping for my moms birthday gift. im kind of debating whether or not to decorate the house, i dont think i will..but. probably ill go get her some flowers to put on the table.. something festive… :) to add to the gifts.

sooo mom still is mom. she had her appointment at psychiatric department today. apparently, that didnt go quite as well as planned. but we have yet to know the results…. mom is kind of pissed by it though, she said its a waste of time. interesting change in emotions from yesterday to today….

i got my concealer at sephora today. kind of debating whether or not to return it tho, im not sure if its worth the money? i have a tendency to do that tho, pick things up and then put them down.. but its been harder because no one goes shopping with me anymore, so now i have to make my own decisions. lol.

ok, the bf is calling so im gonna cut this one short.

DSK!!

i forgot to mention i got my DSK necklace and earring set... :)

PICTURES LATER!

THANKS SO MUCH TO STEPHANIE!!

her package made me feel soo special :)

and so it begins.

theres no such thing in anyone's life, as an unimportant day.

does anyone else out there in cyberworld, find it hard to wake up in the morning like me? seriously?! not because i didnt sleep well the night before, bt only because im soo tired of the repetitiveness my life has become? thats bad right? i mean? maybe im depressed... actually not even a maybe... i know im depressed.

ok so now what? how can i un-depress myself?... vacation?.. shopping sprees?? hmmm.. easier said then done.....please.. before i start getting stupid comments saying my other shuddacuddawuddas.. let me update you with all thats goin on right now.

i quit my job and moved from the bay all the way to modesto to help take care of my mom who has cancer... tough, but we are dealing with it. but thats the easy part... what we didnt count on was the emotional effects that it was gonna have on everyone.... i mean what can someone do, for the one person who always took care of everyone else? my mom is like that... she was the type of lady who would help anyone who would ask for it....as a mother though, she loved to take control but now, her disease is making her lose control... and its not good for her sanity. for everyones sanity. on days where the house isnt a battlefield.. moms actually a peaceful person... however on days where my mom is in pain, the house is like a tornado waiting to happen. its a pandoras box effect.

it would be easy for me to just give up. to leave... and to have nothing to do with my family. but i know i cant do that. my heart wont let me... my question to myself now though, is how am i gonna be able to alleviate everything going on at home and still move my life forward? so back to the above question what can i do to un-depress myself?... i blog. its the only way, i can vent, and say what i gotta say...

alrite.. SO THANKS FOR READING! :) take care.

arcie and jun's wedding shower.

today was jun and arcies wedding shower....kuya woke up hella early to rserve the spot... then me and kat went later to set up tables... and wait for guests to come.... check the view!! who knew this even existed in the middle of union city? lol....the party was fun...

Brent as usual was super cute.. except he kept running off to places.... that was the scare... cuz he kept runnin off... but hes a kid what can u expect? .... ooo man.... i cant believe august 22nd is almost here!!! its soo exciting.. i still gotta work on my speech. lol.

alrite.. til next time!

Makeup Trial.

today i went to the bay for Arcie and Juns bridal/wedding shower tomorrow. :)

but first... we babysat kel and liv for my aunt cuz she had a business meeting in the area ( me and olivia were trying not to spend money-- so we were walking around the mall)... then olivia wanted to play in this fountain thing we have outside. lol..... its pretty cool... theres water that squirts out every couple of seconds... then theres this random burst of water that sprays you... at first we thought it was turned off, cuz all that was coming out was little water squirts. then as we were about to walk away and into sephora--a huge burst came out... so i just decided to play with my cam and take pictures. :).. its felt good to just laugh. and Olivia is good company to do it with. lol. shes so funny.

afterwards, i took the girls to swim practice... its their last one of the season... they have competition tomorrow!!

after that: i drove to kat's and kuya's house..... me and kat had some good ol' vietnamese sandwiches... and then i got my phone exchanged at my brothers work... old navy for some basic tanks... then HOME for a makeup trial with kat for arcies wedding...... i didnt get my text from kat that told me to bring my makeup so really i just had to work with what i brought for the weekend.... she wntd something simple, neutral... i was sad cuz i didnt bring my kit... but it worked out at the end... if u look theres 2 different styles....... eitherway kat decides she is gonna look pretty.

i finally got her to buy MAKEUP!! lol. she gonna get MAC l/s in cherish and dazzleglass in babysparks!... and i almost convinced her to get MUFE foundation. all good tho... babysteps. :) hahaha.

alrite guys.. gotta sleep early tonight...


PARTY TOMORROW :)

weddingdaze

congrats to saundra and josh! :)

and the wedding season starts.

happy birthday to you!

i love parties where i can put makeup on people... i dont know what it is about it, but it calms me. lol. anyway, i did makeup for bianca and arcie for bianca's 18th birthday.. the best compliment of the day came from brent (my little brother) when i was done with them.... "WOW ATE I LIKE YOUR EYES!!!" hahaha. its great. Arcie and Binkz rarely wear makeup so i love putting it on them... amazing how a simple thing can change... one persons whole look... even their personality changes, they carry themselves differently. My sisters are naturally beautiful... so with makeup on, it was a great job! haha. i finally got to try my new curling iron too. it worked great... and fast!!

the party was fun... but the best thing of all was spending time with family.

kk. take care... back to life.

Independence.

happy fourth of july :)

dont drink and drive!!

i dunno yet if i should continue this blog... everytime i write something... it gets erased.

bleh. maybe next time?

im a big girl, now.

Happy Graduation Sister!

im soo proud of you. :)

sooo i just realized that i graduated highschool, 7 years ago!

geez. so much stuff is happening this year... summer is gonna fly by fast!!

july- my sisters 18th bday

august- weddings galore!!

especially august... you'd be lucky to even see me in august!!


sorry for the non-informative posts.

one year ago.

happy 25th birthday to me :)

lol. after 21, there really isnt anything left to look forward too.... just another year.

you know how i know that im old?

everyone around me is either getting married or having kids.

Anyway, i had a weekend with the fams @ a beach house in aptos.

it was pretty peaceful.

then again, you can never go wrong with the beach.

seriously. :)

thanks for everyone who came with.


GIA DOG!! get better soon. auntie missed u!