Happy 26th Birthday KAT!!
iloveyou best.
ps: from bella too.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. :)
A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts. ~Washington Irving
R.I.P ROSALIA GADDI HOUTCHENS
SEPTEMBER 4, 1955 to OCTOBER 18, 2009
If anything i learned from my mom, is that happiness consists of living a simple life. Your priorities, are God, and your FAMILY....everything after that just falls into place. You hold onto your blessings, the good and the bad, and you go on with the ride. Every situation you are given, you pray to God.
In life everyone endures there own struggles. Unfortunately, some harder then others, but in the end, its all the same. My mom battled with breast cancer for almost 5+ years...from the very beginning she was at stage four, with matastisis to the bone, bone marrow, brain and liver. She fought long, and hard... and the serious side affects didnt hit until the end of last year, when she started getting transfusions...... and they found that the cancer was active in her brain...Even, though my mom keep going.....when she lost her hair after her radiation to her brain, my mom still insisted on cleaning the house, and going out. She would make it to 8 o'clock mass every single day. with her colorful head scarves/rags/hats. And we would have breakfast, or go to the 99cent store, or dollar tree...Or she would ask to just drive around and go to the Blessed Sacrament in Riverbank, or visit the sisters of the HolyCross... While Im driving, she then would ask about my bf, and want to talk to him, or Telling me how she no longer wants dogs as grandchildren...or about me being a nurse, or continuing my education./// Then wen we come home, after we clean the rooms, or fold laundry, she would always tell me to rest.... She hated being in bed... always getting up to check on us... and make sure our bags and rooms are maintained. popping up out of nowhere... Even as she got weaker, her stubborness still would insist on her independence...
As the cancer progressed, we werent able to do all those things anymore.... she stayed in bed more, and ate less... then talked less...and slept more.
This year, i was able to spend a lot of time, being with her, learning more about her. I couldnt believe that in the 25 years, how much i didnt know, about someone who knows soo much about me.... She genuinely cared about everyone, it didnt matter how long she knew you, what you looked like, where you are from. She enjoyed the presence of people, entertaining them.. She was so humble, and she enjoyed living life simply. She would always pray that God would take care of us, before we prayed for Her. She never put herself first.... I learned that anything she ever did, she always wanted to include the family, AND make sure that everyone is provided for. I spent so many years trying not to be her, only to find that, the more i push the more she pulls... and the more i become like her...
Not only is my mom always going to be in my heart, she is My heart. Her caring compassion, her innocence, trustworthyness in people, her ability to love through hurt, and her unfailing faith in God .Thats all things she instilled in me, and im sure in my brothers and sisters too... as well as touching the many people all over the place.
She always loved angels, she enjoyed collecting them.. and NOW, she's our angel.
Its only been a day, and I miss you mom...
Thank you for everything you've done for us all.
You can rest now.
i love you....
R.I.P ROSALIA GADDI HOUTCHENS
SEPTEMBER 4, 1955 to OCTOBER 18, 2009
If anything i learned from my mom, is that happiness consists of living a simple life. Your priorities, are God, and your FAMILY....everything after that just falls into place. You hold onto your blessings, the good and the bad, and you go on with the ride. Every situation you are given, you pray to God.
In life everyone endures there own struggles. Unfortunately, some harder then others, but in the end, its all the same. My mom battled with breast cancer for almost 5+ years...from the very beginning she was at stage four, with matastisis to the bone, bone marrow, brain and liver. She fought long, and hard... and the serious side affects didnt hit until the end of last year, when she started getting transfusions...... and they found that the cancer was active in her brain...Even, though my mom keep going.....when she lost her hair after her radiation to her brain, my mom still insisted on cleaning the house, and going out. She would make it to 8 o'clock mass every single day. with her colorful head scarves/rags/hats. And we would have breakfast, or go to the 99cent store, or dollar tree...Or she would ask to just drive around and go to the Blessed Sacrament in Riverbank, or visit the sisters of the HolyCross... While Im driving, she then would ask about my bf, and want to talk to him, or Telling me how she no longer wants dogs as grandchildren...or about me being a nurse, or continuing my education./// Then wen we come home, after we clean the rooms, or fold laundry, she would always tell me to rest.... She hated being in bed... always getting up to check on us... and make sure our bags and rooms are maintained. popping up out of nowhere... Even as she got weaker, her stubborness still would insist on her independence...
As the cancer progressed, we werent able to do all those things anymore.... she stayed in bed more, and ate less... then talked less...and slept more.
This year, i was able to spend a lot of time, being with her, learning more about her. I couldnt believe that in the 25 years, how much i didnt know, about someone who knows soo much about me.... She genuinely cared about everyone, it didnt matter how long she knew you, what you looked like, where you are from. She enjoyed the presence of people, entertaining them.. She was so humble, and she enjoyed living life simply. She would always pray that God would take care of us, before we prayed for Her. She never put herself first.... I learned that anything she ever did, she always wanted to include the family, AND make sure that everyone is provided for. I spent so many years trying not to be her, only to find that, the more i push the more she pulls... and the more i become like her...
Not only is my mom always going to be in my heart, she is My heart. Her caring compassion, her innocence, trustworthyness in people, her ability to love through hurt, and her unfailing faith in God .Thats all things she instilled in me, and im sure in my brothers and sisters too... as well as touching the many people all over the place.
She always loved angels, she enjoyed collecting them.. and NOW, she's our angel.
Its only been a day, and I miss you mom...
Thank you for everything you've done for us all.
You can rest now.
i love you....
In one moment, Life can change.
One life, can affect a lot of people,
One good memory, can spark a smile,
One good smile, can open a heart,
Open hearts, can get hurt easily,
Hurt brings about sadness,
One moment of sadness, can bring forgiveness,
Forgiveness, can bring you peace.
Finding peace, allows you to find happiness.
One life, can affect a lot of people,
One good memory, can spark a smile,
One good smile, can open a heart,
Open hearts, can get hurt easily,
Hurt brings about sadness,
One moment of sadness, can bring forgiveness,
Forgiveness, can bring you peace.
Finding peace, allows you to find happiness.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
through a window.
My auntie's from new york are here. I picked them up this morning from their hotel.. and they went crazy while i did my errands at the oriental market.... buying vietnamese food... you gotta hand it to my aunts, you will never starve with them.
i swear they brought food from new york, and on top of their food, they bought food here.
i missed my aunts and their quirky personalities.
Its hard to imagine whats happening. one of those things that you never seem to understand until it really happens to you. Its like we are in our own little world, and everyone else is outside it.
I hate it when people ask me how my day is going, or how my mom is (we live in a small city...) its hard to actually say NOT GOOD, but then at the same time, it feels better to open up to someoone.
you cant put a time limit on your life. When its the end, it will happen.
its getting harder and harder each day. But every new day is a another chance.
i swear they brought food from new york, and on top of their food, they bought food here.
i missed my aunts and their quirky personalities.
Its hard to imagine whats happening. one of those things that you never seem to understand until it really happens to you. Its like we are in our own little world, and everyone else is outside it.
I hate it when people ask me how my day is going, or how my mom is (we live in a small city...) its hard to actually say NOT GOOD, but then at the same time, it feels better to open up to someoone.
you cant put a time limit on your life. When its the end, it will happen.
its getting harder and harder each day. But every new day is a another chance.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
L'Occitane Review: Almond Apple Velvet Concentrate
Im just going to cut to the chase on this one:
My dad bought it for me in August, he told me to try L'Occitane cuz he likes the lotion (yes i know.. my dad.)... sure enough after i washed my face and put on the lotion, my skin was seriously soft, and smooth, I noticed smaller pores right away... RIGHT AWAY... and it smelled so yummy... The consistency of the lotion is nice and light.
Ive been using Aveeno skincare products because my skin is annoying when it comes to what i put on it, it USUALLY reacts best with aveeno, so i was surprised when i used this one, because i've been none to have bad effects with expensive skin care products... i dont know if its because the things i used was too strong or what not.... but it has definitely, shown an amazing difference in my skin. Its overall effect was soo good, i can go out with no foundation (when im feeling daring..hehe)
The only con about this product is that its 42 dollars... however, the lady gave us a bunch of samples... and online, you can get a discount off of it if you buy another skin care product.... and it doesnt have a spf (this might not necessarily be a con since i only put spf on in the morning)
with skin like mine, i tend to buy what has truly proven to work. Aveeno has always been a staple, but since im getting older i was looking for something that combats aging... this product really is great. I decided to review it cuz, I was looking for reviews on this and i couldnt find a single one. Lol! hopefully this works for someone else.
www.loccitane.com
Monday, October 5, 2009
if i can change places.
Im hurting inside.
Not because my mom is dying, but because there is nothing i can do to stop whats going to happen.
Hospice came today, to start assisting us on all the necessary things.
Admitedly, there was a certain comfort in them coming. but its morbid.... its definitely one of those experiences that i never thought woiuld ever happen to me.
i dont know where all my extra stength is coming from, but im glad i have it.
cause right now, its not about me, its about the people i care about who need me.
... the social worker from hospice gave me a book about dying.... at first i was scared to open it, cause i didnt want to know... was scared to know.... but it was a small book like 10 pages long, and huge writing... and it was sitting on my desk calling my name.... 'read me...' so i prayed, and i opened the book. i actually kind of just skimmed through it... but in my opinion, its one of those books you never wanna read,... cause its so hard to come to terms with what its telling you.
.....
Not because my mom is dying, but because there is nothing i can do to stop whats going to happen.
Hospice came today, to start assisting us on all the necessary things.
Admitedly, there was a certain comfort in them coming. but its morbid.... its definitely one of those experiences that i never thought woiuld ever happen to me.
i dont know where all my extra stength is coming from, but im glad i have it.
cause right now, its not about me, its about the people i care about who need me.
... the social worker from hospice gave me a book about dying.... at first i was scared to open it, cause i didnt want to know... was scared to know.... but it was a small book like 10 pages long, and huge writing... and it was sitting on my desk calling my name.... 'read me...' so i prayed, and i opened the book. i actually kind of just skimmed through it... but in my opinion, its one of those books you never wanna read,... cause its so hard to come to terms with what its telling you.
.....
JULU jewelry: Lariat Necklace
I got my Lariat Necklace in the mail today from Stephanie of Julu Jewelry.
It's so pretty... I wish my little brother didn't ruin my memory card... so i can post pictures up on here.... sometimes, its better to see things, then read it.... in due time.
my package came really fast, and stephanie gave me great communication throughout the whole thing... she even was able to make the chain longer!! she was so friendly... and understanding.
i was surprised when i opened my package and i recieved a pair of earrings (free), some mints, and asian candies..... Her box was decorated and specially detailed towards me...
i like recieving things in the mail... and i especially love recieving little surprises.
I remember how i felt when i recieved my DSK necklace that my bf bought me... and how special that packaging was as well. **sigh** lol.
The internet is a great place to find up and coming artist... whether it be cosmetics, fashion, or jewelry... music, photographers... whatever!
its hard to 'make-it' out there. i love helping these people out.
www.julujewelry.com
www.dskjewelry.com
:)
It's so pretty... I wish my little brother didn't ruin my memory card... so i can post pictures up on here.... sometimes, its better to see things, then read it.... in due time.
my package came really fast, and stephanie gave me great communication throughout the whole thing... she even was able to make the chain longer!! she was so friendly... and understanding.
i was surprised when i opened my package and i recieved a pair of earrings (free), some mints, and asian candies..... Her box was decorated and specially detailed towards me...
i like recieving things in the mail... and i especially love recieving little surprises.
I remember how i felt when i recieved my DSK necklace that my bf bought me... and how special that packaging was as well. **sigh** lol.
The internet is a great place to find up and coming artist... whether it be cosmetics, fashion, or jewelry... music, photographers... whatever!
its hard to 'make-it' out there. i love helping these people out.
www.julujewelry.com
www.dskjewelry.com
:)
Thursday, October 1, 2009
lemonade.
its funny how life is sometimes.
just when you think things are looking up, an obstacle comes along.
my moms blood test came back from the doctor... and it looks like her liver is beginning to fail from the cancer.
... and the doctor said its time.
im not sure how to feel about this right now... its a whole bunch of emotions.
ill blog later... when i can clear my head better.
just when you think things are looking up, an obstacle comes along.
my moms blood test came back from the doctor... and it looks like her liver is beginning to fail from the cancer.
... and the doctor said its time.
im not sure how to feel about this right now... its a whole bunch of emotions.
ill blog later... when i can clear my head better.
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